As I continue on my own path of personal development- I wanted to share a piece I wrote. I am in great exploration now of my shadow self, and I invite you to read the following with an open mind. There is a symbiotic relationship when we act in vulnerability.
Treading carefully pace by pace
Down the path of life,
My darker, shadowy projection dragging on the ground behind me.
Unshakable & unyielding,
Fear keeps me from ever really looking back at it.
The unknown prevents me from investigating too deeply.
Not my shadow.
I will run from it
Numb it out
Cover it up
Manipulate, maneuver and manage my way around seeing it.
The farther I run,
The more tired I become.
Fatigued, hurting and desperate.
I have to look at it. I have to confront it.
I summon all the courage, the strength I can.
I gather my weapons of battle,
my tools of self discovery & my accomplices in the mission
I brace myself, almost paralized.
Both by the pain of avoidance and fear of the unknown.
I turn my head, bracing for the ugliest of monsters.
I am saddened to find-
it’s only me.
My hurting little girl, struggling for control.
I drop my guard, my weapons, defenses of destruction-
I drop to my knees.
To finally welcome her home with me.