An Ode to Freedom

There's this fear when you get sober, this overwhelming fear of losing your freedom. It's easy to romanticize the lifestyle as being free, an experience of rebellion coated with substances abound. I get it. There's not a lot of other obligations to uphold when your priority is always to get high again. The vulnerability of … Continue reading An Ode to Freedom

The Tragedy of an Overdose

The Tragedy of an Overdose Today, is international Overdose Awareness Day. I have struggled to find the words to begin. A lump in the back of my throats hangs stagnant, and I almost feel defeated. Almost. Instead, I feel anger. Angry that we have to devote an entire day, to the awareness of a disease. A … Continue reading The Tragedy of an Overdose

Cody’s Miracle

When you're in recovery, your friends die. Your friends die, a lot. That may seem brash, or cold, or dehumanizing; But I promise it isn't. It's a truth that I came to live with, the reality. Each death, while still heartbreakingly tragic- became less and less shocking. I was growing increasingly complacent. Until, that is, … Continue reading Cody’s Miracle

Harm Reduction

Today is International Harm Reduction Day. It is a day that intends to honor the practice of harm reduction in our communities, and the people who champion for that cause. Downtown today, the Harm Reduction Action Center was busy, dispensing kits and patrolling Colfax for possible overdoses. Online, the conversation continues to get heated and … Continue reading Harm Reduction

What does it mean to be in recovery? 

  Recovery Whether you like it, or not, you’re in it. The term recovery, is one with an admittedly harsh stigma. When you share that label, that modifier, that statement, “I’m in recovery” a cornucopia of strange emotions arise. Whether it be judgment, pity, scorn, resentment or envy- it is a statement that almost always … Continue reading What does it mean to be in recovery? 

Gratitude

Gratitude was one of the earliest influencers in my journey of healing. After hitting a point of pure desperation, being grateful for even the smallest of things became easy. When I was finally awarded a bed, a decent meal, safety and dignity- I was genuinely overwhelmed with appreciation. If not for the lack, I would … Continue reading Gratitude