Clean Time

I just celebrated a six-year anniversary. An anniversary marking six years of being free of the addiction that created so much havoc and dis-ease in my life. Six years abstinent of the chemical hooks that promised me brighter days, and led me to darker corridors. While yes, I am proud. I do take a moment … Continue reading Clean Time

The Tragedy of an Overdose

The Tragedy of an Overdose Today, is international Overdose Awareness Day. I have struggled to find the words to begin. A lump in the back of my throats hangs stagnant, and I almost feel defeated. Almost. Instead, I feel anger. Angry that we have to devote an entire day, to the awareness of a disease. A … Continue reading The Tragedy of an Overdose

Harm Reduction

Today is International Harm Reduction Day. It is a day that intends to honor the practice of harm reduction in our communities, and the people who champion for that cause. Downtown today, the Harm Reduction Action Center was busy, dispensing kits and patrolling Colfax for possible overdoses. Online, the conversation continues to get heated and … Continue reading Harm Reduction

Forgiveness

Forgive and forget, as the old saying goes. The alliteral advice, doesn't sit well with most folks. For some reason the idea of completely letting go is unsettling to most people. Why? Why are we resisting forgiveness so much in our lives? This resistance to forgive, to me, illustrates a buried resentment. To not forgive, … Continue reading Forgiveness

What does it mean to be in recovery? 

  Recovery Whether you like it, or not, you’re in it. The term recovery, is one with an admittedly harsh stigma. When you share that label, that modifier, that statement, “I’m in recovery” a cornucopia of strange emotions arise. Whether it be judgment, pity, scorn, resentment or envy- it is a statement that almost always … Continue reading What does it mean to be in recovery? 

Gratitude

Gratitude was one of the earliest influencers in my journey of healing. After hitting a point of pure desperation, being grateful for even the smallest of things became easy. When I was finally awarded a bed, a decent meal, safety and dignity- I was genuinely overwhelmed with appreciation. If not for the lack, I would … Continue reading Gratitude